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My game got called off due to not having enough players. It seems like as soon as one cancels the rest fall like dominos. At the point where I get down to 2 other people and me I just call it. Which I did tonight.
Today we got the details on a home loan cost. There's no way. IT would more than double what we pay in rent now. So unless my MiL is willing to carry the note on the house with reduced payments there's no way we can afford it. I assume Ashley is going to talk to her about it at some point. I absolutely hate the uncertainty. I grew up worried about not having a roof over my head. When I was a teenager I spent a few nights out on the streets in winter in New York. Not NYC, like up in the mountains during the worst winter NY upstate had in the previous 30 years.
The possibility of losing housing literally causes panic attacks. So back to uncertainty.
Today we got the details on a home loan cost. There's no way. IT would more than double what we pay in rent now. So unless my MiL is willing to carry the note on the house with reduced payments there's no way we can afford it. I assume Ashley is going to talk to her about it at some point. I absolutely hate the uncertainty. I grew up worried about not having a roof over my head. When I was a teenager I spent a few nights out on the streets in winter in New York. Not NYC, like up in the mountains during the worst winter NY upstate had in the previous 30 years.
The possibility of losing housing literally causes panic attacks. So back to uncertainty.